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Upon reflecting on my situation, I am not sure that being on the other side allows me to throw the responsibility of the actions I see as bad to the system on the side doing those actions without myself being a participant. The integrity of the system should always be at the best it can be and never sacrificed even for one second. Even just reasonably, as much as the reason was the integrity of the system to begin with, what has been happening here does not make sense. Should we just close our eyes now then start over when things are over?  

My desire to show how much I am not affected by what have been going on has led me to be light years away from my natural behaviour here. However, I now realize how I missed seeing that as tolerating what is going on for material benefit could even make more sense as accusation. Therefore I tell all those doing those things to the system that if you think that I am willing to trade-off even a tiny bit of what you are doing for such a gain then you are in different universe from where I am. So if that is out of the picture then why are you doing what you are doing? Shouldn't you at least check to see if it is the only available path first? Why do you let a psycho have his way suggesting to you that somehow you can create a fake behaviour for the system showing corruption while inside he maintains a satisfaction in that the behaviour of the system is the system?

I know that I could have confused things, especially toward the court, speaking from an external point of view without sufficiently emphasizing the internal one but I intend to no longer even blink from seeing myself as part of the system.